Motherhood and Idols

"Lord Jesus, forgive me." I thought as I realized why I was feeling so disconnected. How many days had I skipped devotions because I didn't wake up early enough? How many times did I rush around trying to do, that I forgot He also calls us to sit. 

There are many things motherhood will do in a person, and exposing the worship of idols seems to be pretty close to the top of the list. What started off as a blessing of grace, this thing we call time, has quickly turned into an idol for many of us. We have appointments, schedules, timers, alarms, and clocks everywhere. And I wonder if that is what God purposed time for... A driving lord over every part of our lives. Wasn't time a blessing of grace to keep humanities' sin from affecting us eternally? Wasn't the intention to give us time to turn back to God? Instead, we hustle through every moment and try to check off as much as we can. I'm guilty. I love a good to-do list. I love checking things off. I love calendars and alarms. But when did I cross the line of loving something and worshipping it? I really don't know. 

How do we know if something we love is an idol? How do you feel when it's taken away or messed up? What do you do if God calls you away from it? 

Do you neglect your worship of God to pursuit it instead? 

Do you neglect those God has placed in your home, your first ministry, in pursuit of it? 

Time slips away so easily when a toddler seems to say "toilet" every 5 minutes. Time slips away in the hours of cuddles and playing. Time slips away as we wash and fold laundry. If we worship the time that is slipping away, we will feel like we are slipping away ourselves. We can't do as much as we used to, at least that's what it feels like, because our doing has turned into pouring ourselves into the little ones. But aren't we made for eternity? Let the time slip, the hours will go by whether I do or I sit. The act of sitting, of pouring ourselves out, of prioritizing other's needs, all of it is preparation for eternity. And eternity is where we truly belong.