Will He?

I’ve been in church all of my life. In fact, I was a consistent member even before I was born. Even when I went through a rebellious phase or two, I didn’t stop going to church. This isn’t bragging, or saying I’m somehow better, because I’m most definitely not. But it’s part of my testimony; a part that I am ever increasingly grateful for. Yet, this consistent church going hasn’t made life easy. God never promised life would be easy. In fact, He pretty much promised it wouldn’t be (John 16:33). The hours I have spent in a church building haven’t saved me from life’s trials, it hasn’t always been a catalyst for the instantaneous miracle, but it has been a lifeline. I mention my history of church-going because I want you to know that I was raised knowing the right answers. When I tell you what I’m about to say, I want you to know that my brain can logically and biblically explain things. 

You see, I know without a shadow of doubt that God is CAPABLE of coming through in ANY situation. I know His Word says that He CAN do miracles. I have seen the crippled walk without crutches. I have seen miraculous deliverance from drugs, alcohol, and many other things. I have personally experienced physical, mental, and emotional healings. I KNOW that He is CAPABLE. His omnipotence, omnipresence, and omniscience really have not been in question in my mind. But for the last 27 years, God has been purposefully answering the question I have had. My questioning wasn’t about what He CAN do, but it was very much about what He WILL do. I could spend hours, maybe even days telling you the times He has answered this for me. However, I’d rather give you the answers He gave me to my questions. They were there all along; the words I was searching for were waiting for me the entire time. While I had examples of His acts, I couldn’t figure out the words. But when I built up the courage to ask Him point blank, His Word answered back. 

Me: “God, I KNOW You CAN. But Lord, are you willing?” 

God: “I AM.” Exodus 3:14 (partial scripture)

Me: “But what if…” 

God: “I AM.” 

Me: “Okay…. I know You are omnipresent. But will You really be with me? I know You CAN be with me, but WILL You?

God: “I WILL never leave you nor forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5

Me: “But when I fail, when I fall down, I know You can be with me, but WILL You still CHOOSE to be with me?”

God: “If you make your bed in hell, behold I AM there.” Psalm 139:8 (partial scripture/pronouns changed)

You see, He has never left. He not only CAN, but He WILL. His WILL may not look like you want. He might answer differently than we planned. But He will always be there.